“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6
This has been our theme memory verse for our week of school. This morning I asked the kids what they worried about. Without skipping a beat, Elijah emphatically blurted out, “Food!” He was not joking at all, but very serious. Oh how that made my heart hurt for him and brought me so quickly down to his reality.
Later I had some one on one time with Elijah and had the opportunity to talk more about his fears. As some of you know, he lived his first seven years with his Chinese family and their means were so different than ours. He confessed that he was often hungry and that there never seemed to be enough to eat. At one time they bought three piglets to raise. When they were grown, the family butchered them and sold the best meat for needed cash (he has shared these adventurous times with us before with great excitement, ha!). They saved the lesser desirable parts for themselves, such as the tail, the heart, and the feet. Even these were a treat.
It breaks my heart that Elijah still carries the fear of hunger with him. We have always been very aware of his love of eating, although I have no idea where he puts it all. He eats twice what an adult eats and always asks for more. When he asks for his third or fourth helping, I often ask, “Are you really hungry, or do you just like to eat?” He used to always answer, “I’m hungry”, but as time has passed he has learned to say the truth, “I just like to eat”. But even as he says that I know he still wants the security of knowing that more food will still be available. I usually allow one more small serving and he knows that’s the end for this meal.
The verse that follows Philippians 4:6 is, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” I pray that Elijah will grow to trust Jehovah Jireh, our provider. In the meantime, as his spirit learns not to be anxious, this mama will keep his tummy full and allow some extra servings even when he is not physically hungry. His spirit is hungry and we will feed that as much as possible with love as well as some extra feasting over the upcoming holidays.